CA BOOM TIME!

Okay y'all, 


Sorry that I haven't been talking on here as much, I try to do it as much as possible, but there are things that just happening in my our RP world that it's hard to even compare to life and let's say it was so bad that I blew up and cried on my dad's shoulder and heads up y'all, I barely ever cry on my dad's shoulders, let alone hug him for I was never that type of girl that cared to be hugged by a guy much,


I don't mind hugging kids, but it's harder for me to hug adults and it's more a force to me to do so, but I'll usually do it with a happy face on my face, just like that mask below, you look happy on the out, but really, you're really not that happy at all,


But any ways, speaking of crying on my father's shoulders, my mother wrote a message on FB through one of my sister's account since she doesn't have a FB to watch over us, she let's her older kids do  that, but basically, it was telling me that she only wants the best for me and stop talking to strangers that I so called "friends"  as she called them, and my bebo friends on there are my friends and who else do I talk to? 


I mean, we really don't have the best conversations going on at home much for I'm not much into politics or history or whatever, so my life would be totally boring if I didn't have any friends to talk to, and FB really doesn't count for I barely talk to anyone on there except for what? Maybe about 5-10 minutes, MAX! 



Yeah, what a great life that is for me... So, I was planning on leaving bebo for I think it's better for me in the long run and I know it's gonna keep me out of trouble as well, I mean, my parents can tell when I'm in a really bad mood and it's just because I'm on the PC a lot, it's because I'm Online talking to someone and who knows, getting myself in trouble,


All I can say is that ever since I started arguing with two guys on bebo, it's been hard for me that I finally went CA BOOM! 


P.S. - Mother only wants to protect me for people I don't know about and I want to tell my brother, but at the same time, I'm even to embarrassed on telling what happened last week let alone today, but yeah, I think its time to put the past behind and say...

Hakuna Matata 

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFaHuinHXRQ&list=PL79F2B828C9BB94E9&index=26 

6/5 - 6/6/ = Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad times for me

Okay, so last night between Sep. 5 and early Sep. 6th at 12 a.m.ish my time marked the night/morning of the worst day ever, 


This picture here to the left, was literally how I felt,  and went through 6 tissues just to stop crying and didn't finish till around 1 a.m.ish and also marked the day that my heart has lost it's beat,


You see, there's this guy who we met on bebo back in Dec. 2010 and was a Custom Character named Kane, which was also his real name, but as we rp and got to know each other, I fell for him badly, I never thought I could cry so much for him until last night, he left bebo many time for I don't know why, but when he came back on last night, you really don't want to know all that he said, but he called me a biatch which I have never in my entire life been call by that from him, he deleted me off bebo without letting me even talk with him, he sent a really bad video that I don't even wanna post up for I barely even watched cause it was that bad, let's say my life is ruin and I plan on leaving bebo, but everyone wants me to still stay, so I'll see what this month brings for me when it comes to staying, so ya, not a very good time for me last night that I barely could fall asleep, but I eventually did after some more crying and my eyes still hurt from crying too... 


He thought I cheated on him when I doubt, I didn't. I may talk with other guys on there and teas around, but I did not go around and having sex with all the guys I talk to, it was to much that I literally felt my heart was no longer going to exist in this world, life is just to hard for me, but I know I still need to keep moving forward, just like the quote: 

“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”

Life from July till Present

Hey everyone! I honestly don't know who all reads this, but here goes nothing, sorry that I haven't been on for a while, been busy over  the summer with vacations and working for our family business.


This summer, I got to travel to Texas with my bro towards the beginning of July and it was great! I had a fun time sleeping there and back and also seeing everything there, my favorite place to eat with him was Dicky's Barbecue Pit and just had a great time, even though it was hot there, it was still a fun time, got a chance to swim in the nice bath pool, which by the way, was only 5 ft. I thought that was lame, I was expecting to be like past 7 feet at the latest, but 5 ft had to do for me since I'm short anyways, :P,


Okay, after vacation in July, for the first week of August I had VBS at my church and that was fun for I got to lead the music and got to teach them new sign language and sing at the same time which was then performed Sunday night for the parents to see and it was just fun all the way, 


Other then that, it's been pretty still lately from then until now, not much is going on except for the fact that we've been repainting our place inside out, starting from the outside, toward upstairs and working our way down toward my room and anything else that needs paining, 


I'm still trying to decide what color to paint my room, I want one color, but it's "to dark" quote mother and I guess it is, but I just loooooove the colors, and it was more of a teal color... Let's say I love any shade of blue from the lightest of blue to the darkest of blue, but I just care for the music blue, :L